You're kiddin' me!

With all of us previously drinking alcoholics we cheated, lied, stole and would lie so much that if ever in a predicament where we were caught and then would tell the truth and admit our guilt  no one would believe us! In all of this if we ever got lucky and something good would happen to us we would feel as if we didn't deserve it! As a Recovering alcoholic of 29 years sober even though I'm a somewhat honest person and try to be a model citizen when good things happen to me I still feel as though I don't deserve it. I heard an one year sober alcoholic tell me that because he had been so bad when drinking that he now doesn't deserve sobriety. I told him that if he didn't deserve sobriety then the God of his understanding wouldn't keep him sober for over a year! I heard myself that day and told myself that if God felt I didn't deserve something then I wouldn't have it! Today I am having fun and am not doing anything illegal, immoral nor indecent! And, yes, it is fun!